Reflection

I was doing a little bit of reflecting this morning. Sometimes I like to flip back through old blog posts and read thoughts from another chapter in my life. I notice a common thread through a lot of them. For a long time, I ached to move forward in my life. It's like I was always waiting for something to happen. I wrote this post in April of 2008, and this one in 2009. For a long time, I felt stagnant. I was waiting to find a house and move out of our apartment, waiting to finish my degree, waiting to have a full time job with benefits so we could start trying for a baby. One after another, we watched those things happen and checked some pretty major items off of our "to do" list.

Closing on our first home, May 2009

Accepting my Bachelor's degree, August 2009

Our first look at our baby and first time hearing his heartbeat, July 2010

Eagerly awaiting Colin's arrival! (With my brother and sister, Christmas 2011)

Meeting my son for the first time, January 2011

Our little family playing in the backyard, just last weekend

Because we know we want more children, I don't yet feel "complete." However, I do feel more complete than I did when I wrote those daydreamy posts so long ago. It's so funny to look back at the times I longed for more, for a different life. I do sometimes wish I had savored the moments when things were different, but at the same time, I always wanted this and I'm so glad I have it now. I'm so blessed by my boys, and despite the fact that we have to work hard for what we have, it has all been worth it. And you know what? I don't really miss what I had before we had all this. Yes, I am thankful for the journey, but I think the time and hard work has only made our lives sweeter. All the experiences we've shared together as a family have only strengthened us. And I can't wait to see what else the future holds. Thank you for sharing in my journey.